To Those Who Wait

Well I see it has been nearly a year since I have blogged.  WHOA!(In my best Joey Lawrence voice).  I have been tempted to stop in from time to time, but then fear creeps in, a child cries, or I find  myself nodding off. So, here I am.  A little bored at the current time and thought I'd give a quick update/write out some thoughts.

Life is crazy. No one can really doubt that.  Two kids, cramped apartment, chaotic schedules. Nothing seems to be slowing down. So, you figure out how to cope and keep moving. That's what I'm learning at least. I can't believe that Jose Jr is nearly 9 months. Eleana will be 3 before we know it. Life just keeps moving.

Life keeps moving even if you feel like you are at a stand still. We're in the process of walking through the next open door/season of life.  Our time at AU has come to an end (well, its in the process of coming to an end which is even worse). We don't know where we are going next though. We've been through this before, but this time there are two extra people along for the ride. I'm not scared, just anxious. I'm a planner.  I have nothing to plan for at this time. Doesn't jive well with me. But I know I'll be taken care of, I know that we'll be provided for. Just being stretched and challenged in the whole patience and waiting. I hate these lessons. Its obvious I haven't learned very well. But we'll see where life takes us in the next two months. A lot can happen over night, so I am trying to breath and enjoy the moment and where I am at currently.

I am learning that I have no clue what I want to do.  One moment it is this, the next it is that.  Then, the following week, I'm back to possibly the other. This, That, and the other. I have options. And each day is a different day. So, on the right day, the job will land and I'll have a decision made for that next season in life.

In the mean time, there is a great song that a good friend passed along.  It has been the words of my heart and couldn't be more fitting for this time in our lives. So I will leave you with this and Thank you Bethany Dillon for this greatness...

 I am waiting on You,

I am waiting on You.
You say You’re good to those who wait.

My heart’s discouraged,
So I come to You expectant. 
You say You’re good to those who wait. 

Lord, today You know what I need to do,
But You can do more in my waiting than in my doing I could do.
So I won’t run anymore.
I’m waiting on You.

Oh, wretched man that I am!
Free me from my distractions.
You say You’re good to those who wait. 

Then confession and repentance
Find me in the quiet.
You say You’re good to those who wait.
Now I know You’re good to those who wait.

Lord, today You know what I need to do,
But You can do more in my waiting than in my doing I could do.
So I won’t run anymore.
I’m waiting on You.

Oh, my soul,
Wait upon the Lord.
Keep your lamp filled with oil.
Oh, my soul,
Be not deceived!
Wait for Him.
Don’t be quick to leave.

Lord, today You know what I need to do,
But You can do more in my waiting than in my doing I could do.
So I won’t run anymore.
I’m waiting on You.